Waiting, December 8, 2010

Who should I be today?

What role should I play?

The wife, the mother,

the bad girl, the lover?

Should I be strong?  Should I be needy?

Independent, maybe greedy?

Can’t show who I really am.

Can’t ’cause no one would understand.

Rejection hurts, causes pain.

Rejection makes me feel insane.

Out of control, fighting the panic.

My insides quiver, hectic and frantic.

So many lies told, truth so far away.

I have forgotten who I am in the day to day.

What is real?  What is fake?

How much more can I take?

When will it end?

How far can I bend?

So I wait…..wait……wait…..

My life, given up to the hands of fate.

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